Ladies Nite..
We present you our famous Dj Rekha Lecka,
ceywah.. poyo2 je..
i didnt plan to go at first.. tp rekha insisted and aku pon ajak la kawan2 aku..
or so called my juniors yg katanya, mereka sanggup ke bulan bersamaku..
hahahaha yo i yo je.. tgk2 all of them cancelled.. mcm c**ai kan?
i decided to ajak my second sister. Raisa Dora..It actually turned out to be a fine night.
it feels good coming back home feeling fresh because i just took a sip and didnt feel like drinking..
Rasanya sebab dah tua la kot.
As soon as we parked the car, boleh tak tetiba ade police bwak laju gile n stopped right behind our car. I was like "F**K!!"
Aku dah la belum renew license, n dia keluar terus mintak ic and license.
tanak cuak plak aku kan? Dah di soal siasat, (kaki aku menggeletar ye), taknak pulak aku fikir yg aku dh takkan dpt bawak kereta,
down kejap ah, pastu bila dia nampak je yg aku ni pon anak polis, dia tnya bapak aku kerja kat mana and stuff like that.
Last2 dia kata the next time dia tahan, aku kena tangkap. It was quite terrifying gak la. Bukan aku bwat salah pon, like im a pusher ke ape, tp the feeling of insecure that i might not get to drive car for 2 or 3 more years..
In Indonesia, diorang ni digelar Poldur..
Needless to say what does it mean la kan.. Kang tak pasal2 kena banned keluar Malaysia.
Siapa tak sayang Malaysia oii...
Sampai je kat atas.....

BAM!! BAM!!
Although I hate to to tell this in front of her, but i gotta admit aku mengagumi beliau. Dia buat apa yang dia suka and dia berjaya dalam apa yang dia suka..
Dia dikagumi, disanjungi not just orang2 kat Malaysia, but as well as the tourists.
Aku bukan bangga sebab dia ni kakak aku, tapi aku tumpang bangga sebab dia ni actually proved people wrong..
Orang yg pernah dengki ngan dia, yang tak suka, yang badmouth dia, sekarang semua two face..
You're like my Idol Rekha and thanks for all the arguments. It wasnt just an argument, you made me think. As much as I hate people criticising me, i consider what they said.
Tp kalau tak betul, tak betul la kan..
anyways, these are few pics i took at the party..
till then, xoxo

Loneliness...
It comes when I feel my life is fun enough.
It comes when I thought my life is just doing fine.

It comes when my friends are talking about their love lives.
It comes when I realised how envy I am looking at my friends who has partner to share their days with.

It puzzles me how bad I can be. Am I that bad? Will I ever make a good partner? Girls can be really choosy sometimes or should I say, I’m the one who is choosy.

I can’t help the feeling of being alone. So lame and feels like a loser. They say when the time comes, you’ll eventually find one but not for me though. I’ve waited long enough and suddenly what seems to me is me being paranoid not having anybody for the rest of my life.

I know I can always depend on my family, but can’t I just get a life partner that can share stories before bed and what I have been doing the whole day?
It hurts so much when in fact i’ve been living my life with loneliness. Somehow, I thank God because loneliness taught me a lot about life.

You can’t really depend on a person because someday, they’ll leave you whether you like it or not. My friend loneliness, taught me that and sometimes loneliness can be a really good friend offering the shoulder for me to cry on.

What seems to me that in each of everyone’s life, loneliness would try to get in your way to be your friend. It surely will because I don’t believe that no one has never felt the feeling of loneliness.

How i appreciate loneliness is how you gonna thank me one day for sharing this with you.
salute to loneliness..

WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER!

Cats

I love cats since the first time I laid my eyes on these creatures.
Let me share something with you, when I was four, I killed this four-legged creature.
I ran down on this creature with a 4 wheels bicycle and I was laughing like it was some kind of a joke.
Later that night, I couldn’t stop thinking about this black-cute-naive little kitten because it didn’t do any harm but trying to get attentions.
Come to think about it, how can I be so mean and killed an innocent creature which was just trying to be fed and wanting me to keep him as a pet?
From that moment, i pledged to myself that I won’t hurt these creatures but help them go through their lives.
The least I could do is feeding the strays whenever i see them.
When i was about 7 or 8, We had 2 cats and their name were BOYOT and BABY.
Boyot was a very cute and fluffy cat. He just knows how to tackle us and we just couldn’t say no to his face. I wish i could show you his picture, but he was gone before we can take the pictures.
Baby on the other hand was a very active cat. However, he had this one skill that I won’t forget. He’d jump and trying to get our attentions whenever we passed by. I guess he was my favourite one because Boyot was my sister’s favourite.
When these two were gone, we couldn’t replace them with a new one. Not even ONE. But one day, my dad came back with a six-fingers-siamese-stray cat. She was named Lucky because we thought she would bring us luck. She produced many little kittens and i named them after characters in Lion King from Mufasa, to Scar, Sarabi, and the cubs, Simba and Nala, Kiara and Covur and many others.
Few months later, my dad was promoted and we were transferred to Muar, and the saddest part was we couldn’t bring them all. Lucky stayed because she was gone. We couldn’t find her, and my dad only wanted Kiara to come along. There in Muar, Kiara produced from generation to generation.
I just couldn’t remember the name anymore.






Currently, there are two cats that I really love so much. One is Kitty or his real name is Ryan Rigoberto (my little sister named him)
and one more is Creamy or Muhammad Kimi (hahahaha). They’re wonderful and i just love these cats. Kitty has a love-shaped on its body and creamy is a Persian who really knows how to tackle a person. He would be scared the first time he sees you but he’ll be the best cat if you know how to break the ice.
I met one more cat which i fell in love right away when i heard about him. He’s blue-eyes and he’s deaf (Dont worry BOBO, we’re almost the same). Though he’s my junior’s (Satek) pet, but i believe i would see him more often from today onwards. InsyaAllah.

yufooo in memory

for the first time in my life, aku betul2 rasa cam aku akan hilang beberapa org kawan..
contohnya.. urm, tak payah la sebut kan? kang ade yg kembang pulak..
sape2 je la..
pagi tadi aku bangun, awal gak ar, lalu pergi mandi dan bersiap utk ke muet..
aku tgk malin lena tido, takut plak nak mintak pinjam kereta,
tp acat kata, try je, malin mesti bg punye... so aku memberanikan diri..
yes! mission accomplished! berjaya buat wanita2 sekeliling pandang aku skit walaupon sebenarnya kereta org..
hahahahhaha... nampak sgt pompuan uitm (most of them) materialistic..
ok lah, back to the muet, payah dowh, serious im not confident with myself either..
paling sakit ati listening test, dah la aku pekak sebelah! tensionnye!!!
hurm.. nak dipendekkan citer, lepas tu kami keluar makan di bawah pohon meranti..
makanannya ok laaa... tp rindu lagi masakan mama!
hehehhe, mesti la, tiada masakan yg lebih enak dr tangan ibu sendiri betul tak kawan2?
dah sampai tu, aku gi panggil adik2 kat atas...
kitorang memulakan perjalanan.. oh aku lupa bagitau eh? aku balik k.L da..
berenam dalam kereta. segat n malin di depan.. (sbb tutttt...) oops.. controversial skit... n kami berempat kat belakang.. aku mcm tak percaya, setibanya aku kat umah segat, aku cam bergenang gak ar air mata, walaupon kadang2 aku nyampah gak kat budak ni sbnrnya, tp aku rasa dia baik sgt dowh, n dia respect aku sbgai senior. itu yg aku salute kat dia.. lepas tu, malin antar aku kat umah satek ngan diorg smua ar, setibanya disana.. KERASSSSS dowh.. tetiba rasa the awkwardness.. padahal sama je, kitorg lepak skali gak kat block, tp tah, cuma apa yg blh aku ckp, aku byk berdiam diri ar ari ni.. tp happy gak ar sbb malam td, kitorg gi the curve, makan kat thai express (mahal nak mampos macam babi) pastu cam whoring ar mcm budak2 myspace lain.. (yucks)
masa lepak kat asia cafe (lepas the curve), aku tak tau nape, tp aku takde mood langsung, dah la kena tgk bola (aku tak minat) pastu tah la, nasib la ade skunk yg teman (tak tgk bola gak).. pastu gossip2 jap, bola pon abis, pastu kitorang balik..
here i am kat depan laptop, writing my journal of the day, sounds boring bt i loike..
nah tgk la gmbar yg tak seberapa ni

Ego?

for the last few days, aku asyik lepak kat level 2, or to be precised, dengan junior2.
aku tau some of them fikir aku dah lupa diorang n now nak lepak ngan budak2 baru je.
tapi diorang tak faham.. aku dah serik ditinggalkan..
aku dah kehilangan orang dari kecik lagi. skrg masa utk ditinggalkan lg skali.
mmg btul apa org slalu cakap, kena tinggal ni rasa sakit dia lagi sakit dr yang meninggalkan.
orang2 yang aku akan rindu, pejan, malin, segat, madeng, samen, acat and lain2 lagi.
mula2 tu peling ckp dia nak quit pon aku dah agak sedih. although aku tak rapat sgt ngan dia, tp ada gak ar masa2 yg bila kitorang lepak skali, kitorang mcm rapat gile.
rupanya dia tipu, masa dia dtg sini, aku terus lari peluk dia kot.
hahahaha.. poyo.. aku tak dpt byangkan nnt masa madeng segat malin pejan nak bla..
sure aku terlepas titisan air mata..
macam mane pon, life must go on with or without them.
ok la, aku nak berkongsi skit sbnrnya. time aku lepak ngan junior2 kat level dua,
ada la makhluk2 tak berakal ni masuk bilik tu.
aku tunjuk work aku kat junior2 and they were asking me a lot of questions bila tengok gambar tu.. n they soon found out aku ada darah pahang skit. so they started asking me how am i connected to the sultan n all. suddenly, these two manusia tak berakal ni start ejek2 aku.. mcm sial je, yg sorang ni lagi hebat, "ayahanda" semalaysia agaknye, dgn slumbernya beliau berkata "oh aku kenal atuk kau, atuk kau la yang gila judi kat genting dulu tu kan" aku bengang siot but all i can do is remain silent. kalau betul pon, ape masalah kau? muka mcm keparat, mmg sial la. i just dont get these people. tak kacau idup mereka, mereka pulak kacau idup aku. ok back to the story, the minute they left. aku apa lagi, terus luahkan tak puas ati ar kat junior2 n they agreed. u should not touch about family.
lagi satu cerita, im not in talking terms with someone who is very important to me. slalu aku akan rasa bersalah, but this time, aku tak tau la whether its ego or what, but entah la. things just dun go that well between us. aku slalu sakit ati n terasa dengan dia, n dia pon mcm slalu annoyed dgn aku. takpe lah, as long as dia happy, aku malas nak kacau. but aku still amik berat pasal dia because to me, dia macam manusia paling rapat pernah aku ada, so im just not used to this kind of situation kot. but i think, its time. masa utk aku bagi dia pilihan utk idup dia sendiri. masing2 dah besar, aku kena ingat, there wont be times for me to rapat2 with people. because one day, they will actually leave jugak. to pejan, malin, segat, madeng..
aku akan slalu ingat kat korang.. thank u for being my wonderful juniors that can never be replaced. korang mean so much to me.. take care n i'll pray for each one of you.. dengan segenap perasaan yang sayu, aku berundur diri dgn tangisan air mata dan kata2 selamat tinggal..
"Ya Allah, kau permudahkan la idup adik2 aku menerusi perjalanan idup ini dan kau rahmati kan lah hidup mereka dengan cahaya kebenaran dan berilah petujuk kepada mereka. murahkan la rezeki dan panjangkan lah umur mereka. Amiiiiinnn.."